I’m over the withdrawal symptoms. Hurray! Just like last time, the worst of it passed on day four. On Sunday night I passed on my own birthday cake with nary a wince. Last night didn’t go as well. The boys were eating Christmas candy from friends at school, and I wanted some even though I don’t like candy. There they were, making all sorts of noise working chocolate covered caramels and lollipops while I tried to focus on my book. After a few minutes I decided they didn’t need me to sit at the table and watch them eat. I didn’t need to sit at the table and watch them eat. I turned to the Mister and the boys and told them I was going to my reading chair. And that was that.
I know why I wanted candy. I wasn’t satisfied with my dinner. It was a haphazard affair constructed from leftovers and quickly sauteed vegetables that left me wanting more.
After a few minutes of reading/stewing in bitterness and resentment, I went to Trader Joe’s to buy ingredients for my favorite sugar free-flour free dessert. It’s nothing fancy, just a yogurt cup, but I love it more than a pile of candy. When the boys have dessert or candy from now on, I’ll be ready…and not so stabby. I’ll be sure to post the non-recipe.
I’m still feeling my way around what to eat, even though I have six months of eating this way two years ago under my belt. I’ve forgotten everything I used to eat! If I’m home, I stick to hearty salads made of kale for lunch. I love kale, cooked or raw. Some people find it too bitter, but it doesn’t bother me in the least. The best part about kale is that its composition is similar to steel or Plastic #7. It’s indestructible. I grab a big bunch of kale, enough for two salads, and dump it in a bowl after a quick rinse. Then I drizzle olive oil or my dressing of choice and a good pinch of salt over the top. Instead of tossing it, I use my hands and massage it as I go. Here’s a video of what I mean. Aarti is using my favorite Lacinato/Black kale.
The kale can stay in the refrigerator overnight fully dressed, unlike salad greens. Cook once, eat twice. I add the salad fixings as needed. The salad in the lead picture has mushrooms, tomatoes, green onions, raw pumpkin seeds, hemp seeds, and Trader Joe’s Goddess Dressing.
It was delicious, not that I was surprised. Every time I resume my healthy eating habits I remember how much I love to eat this way. I feel better. I look better. I’m more satisfied. It’s a win-win. What a shame that my broken brain always tries to pull me away from something that is so good for me.