I avoided our 10th high school reunion because of my weight. I didn’t want anyone to see how removed my body was from it’s former size 4. (To be a size 4, I barely ate and played competitive tennis, but I forgot all that.) Today I am almost the same size I was 10 years ago, and yet this time I co-hosted the event. You grow up. You realize that you will never be where you want (weight, career, social standing) and you get over it, or at least try. The people who don’t like it or criticize can suck it.
Despite all this self actualization talk, I was impossibly stressed about my weight for the reunion. My weight, my gray hair, my wrinkles…all of it. I haven’t been eating like I normally do. July was so ridiculous (I’ve mentioned it) that I spent a good portion of it eating out or eating junk. I even started drinking diet coke again for the caffeine since I wasn’t sleeping. As a result, I gained almost 12 pounds in 6 weeks. Sadly, I didn’t eat a ton of food. What I did eat was your standard restaurant and fast food full of fat, calories, sugar, and chemicals, and my body just can’t tolerate that kind of abuse. I puffed up like a blow fish almost immediately, which is what happens when you drink diet coke and have fast food 2-3 times a week. At least, that’s what happens to me. (And no, I never super-size.)
Anyway, I have seen only a few pictures of the reunion, and of course I don’t recognize myself in most of them. Blech. Hopefully the pictures from the professional photographer we hired will be better. I’m not worried about losing the weight I’ve gained. I’ve already lost some of the bloat and water weight just by drinking plain, old fashioned water. Amazing what happens when you drink what was made to replenish your body instead of chemicals in a can, right? The weight will be gone within a couple of weeks, but this shows me I need to be a better planner, with foods prepared and waiting for me in the freezer for the seasons in my life when I am too busy or stressed to cook healthy meals.
I was feeling a bit down about not having a flattering picture of me at the reunion to show you when I saw these videos on Reachel Bagley’s blog, Cardigan Empire. I absolutely adore this blog and encourage you to take a look through her archives. I have purchased from her a look book and fashion session in the past and loved it. Anyway, here are the videos:
This was just the push I needed to post what could be one of the most unflattering pictures of me in a long time. Tiffany looks great. Steve asked me to clarify that he looks much better in real life. He might be telling the truth. This is at the very end, about an hour and a half after the reunion officially ended and almost 6 hours since my hair saw a brush.
Oh well. It’s not the best picture, but it was the best reunion.